She is officially 3 yo.

Alhamdulillah....Marha genap 3 tahun semalam (8.8.2012 bersamaan 20 Ramadhan 1433H)

Cepatnya masa berlalu....anak ibu dah 3 tahun....macam baru semalam Marha dilahirkan...disusukan. Adoi rindu pula rasa nak beranak kecil lagi....insyaallah semoga Allah memakbulkan doa kami tahun depan Marha bolehlaa pikul tanggungjawab jadi kakak pula.

Semalam, sambutan sekadar kecil-kecilan di rumah....dengan topi princess, tiramisu cake, balloons dan ibu juga ayah.

Syukur nikmat Allah.

Apa yang menarik semalam....kejadian pagi 8.8.2012 segar di ingatan

Ibu: Happy birthday marha...today is ur birthday...u r 3!!

Marha: haaa???? yeay!! where's balloons, cake and present?

Ibu: Kita tunggu berbuka nanti ye...ibu doakan marha sentiasa cintakan Allah, al-quran dan sunnah. Berkasih sayang dengan semua...dan sentiasa dalam kebaikan. *sambil tadah tangan spontan

Marha: aminn...i want my present! *pon sambil tadah tangan

Ibu: bertuah! hahaaa.

Marha sangat-sangat cheeky...sesuai dengan namanya MARHA=periang NABILAH=bijaksana. Sangat kurang buat masalah, jarang menangis...ada je cara nak hiburkan hati semua orang walaupun dia dalam keadaan 'salah'. Hahaaaa. Ibu sayang kamu!

Pencapaian kamu sebagai anak berusia 3 tahun sangat memberangsangkan ibu. Semoga hati kamu sentiasa terang dalam menerima benda-benda baru dalam hidup ini. Ibu doakan kamu  tetap dalam cintakan Allah dan Rasulullah. Ikutilaa segala yang termaktub dalam Al-quran dan sunnah....insyaallah kamu akan menjadi anak ibu yang membantu ibu dan ayah ke syurga nanti. Marha....kehidupan hakiki kita di sana nak...jalanilaa kehidupan kamu sebagai seorang muslim sejati. Adeh macam wasiat pulak bunyinyaa....sayu bila teringat salah satu bekal untuk kita bawa mati adalah doa anak soleh dan solehah. Jika gagal ibu mendidik kamu, ibu terpaksa melalui azab yang pedih....ibu takut ke sana, ayah juga tidak mahu ke sana. Maka mari kita bantu satu sama lain, kita pilih SYURGA!! 

What's next? Ibu dah mula operasi mencari kindy/ tadika/ playschool yang sesuai untuk Marha.....Semoga usaha ibu dipermudahkan dan Marha akan seronok dengan persekitaran baru nanti....Maka dengan itu usaha mencari 'the best' untuk Marha bermulaaaa.....

Happy Birthday Marha!!!

Marha's 2nd Birthday!

Alhamdulillah...how times flies!! Today is our precious princess second birthday. Happy Birthday my dear Marha Nabilah bt. Mardian. Sambutan ulangtahun kelahiran Marha kali ini dibuat secara sederhana kerana hari ini adalah hari ke-8 Ramadhan. Maka sambutan dibuat sejurus berbuka puasa diiringi dengan sedikit doa selamat dari Ayah! Dua tahun berturut, sambutan kelahiran Marha kita sambut di rumah anggut dan enek bersama uncles...hehe. Alhamdulillah. 

Apapun ibu ingin sampaikan yang ibu bangga dengan perkembangan Marha...terlalu banyak pencapaian untuk ibu tuliskan di sini. Cukuplah ibu katakan yang Marha sudah pun pandai counting one to ten and sing phonics song (jelas sekali), sing 'if you happy' and justin bieber song too!! Baby, baby oooo....yeay! You start to show your feeling and acknowledge others with your empathy, very independent even you manage to ease your self whenever I was so busy doing my thing! Ibu love Marha sooo much! And I bet ayah, anggut, enek and uncles feel the same way too! 

This is my birthday wish I wrote at Facebook wall:

Dear Marha Nabilah bt. Mardian: You are my beautiful, charming, funny, intelligent and just plain perfect daughter. You have just enough stubbornness to help you stand up for yourself, and to help get you through life. You are the perfect mix of everything good and we can't wait to see where all of this will take you. Have a very happy second birthday and ayah & ibu can't wait to share many more with you as you get even older. We love you.

~Alhamdulillah ramai kawan-kawan ibu yang mendoakan supaya Marha menjadi anak yang solehah. Aminnn...

Ibu doakan Marha kekal sihat, ceria dan paling penting Marha menjadi anak yang taat pada Allah! Dengan harapan apabila ketaatan itu seluruhnya diserahkan pada Allah, segala-gala perkara berkenaan duniawi dan ukhrawi Marha akan lakukan berlandaskan syariat Allah. Insyaallah.

ipad for my kid, SHOULD I?

Sound cliché but it’s true the ipad will be not for ME but our main purposes of buying Ipad is for my princess after seeing many times scenes of ‘kids holding ipad’! I have seen young kids and even babies with ipad are becoming more common. I suspect some parents as I do seeing ipad as a convenient tool to occupy their children’s time and attention. ipad is certainly easy to carry and, from what I have witnessed, kids are captivated by the ease of use and the versatility ipad can show and do (such as games, videos, photos, picture books, and the internet). Thus, I am thinking of buying an ipad for her! On second thought, should I?

The truth is, I am worried. I am aware of the opportunities ipad can offer to my daughter’s learning development. But I am also aware the harm ipad can do. And no, I am not talking about the harm from UV radiation coming off the screen. The key problem is ipad (we have been focusing) encourage shallow reading – the way we ‘scan’ sentences instead of reading every word in a sentence. Shallow reading discourages us to think deeply and to internalize information, so people who shallow read often fail to see and appreciate the overall picture or concept. I do not want this occur to my princess! I want her to be an avid reader...read a lot and tonnes of books!!

It’s true ipad aid in a child’s education. It is a useful tool, but I believe it cannot replace the importance of printed books and physical, hands-on approach to handling real, physical objects. While reading, kids are required to understand what their read at the same time as their mind imagine the story their reading. So it stimulates the brain and is very productive. In addition, proficiency in reading printed books encouraged a child to develop self-learning skills required later in life.

ipad did offer good quality image along with story therefore requirement of imagination is limited. However, ipad also has positive effects on kids. Some of them are ‘makes you smarter’, ‘improves hand-eye coordination’, and ‘introduces children to computer and information technology.’ Good video games can be fun to play, yet still help a kid with things such as school work, which includes school subjects such as Math, Language Arts, Science, etc. These video games might capture a child’s interest and fascinate them with their topics better than books can offer. 

On top of it I do not want my princess to be stack behind. I want her to keep updating with newest applications with current technology. To one side, I also do not want my princess having less chance of becoming an avid reader! I know which I would like my precious princess to be... instead of rip-off an ipad, it would be better to insist on few hours of reading daily. This way, she can play games in ipad and develop the habit of reading too! Insyaallah.

Today was a Fairytale by Taylor Swift

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face

Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Top Wedding Song

Ini antara lagu-lagu kahwin yang berjaya saya kumpulkan and shortlisted setakat ini (will update later) di mana ia sangat sesuai untuk dijadikan 'wedding song' bersama 'slide presentation' di majlis perkahwinan korang-korang semua + diputarkan oleh DJ semasa majlis berlansung....juga sesuai untuk meraikan 'wedding anniversary uolss'!!

Melayu Song:

P. Ramlee & Saloma - Selamat Pengantin Baru

P. Ramlee - Di Renjis-renjis Dipilis

L Ramli - Dara Pujaan

Anuar Zain - Ketulusan Hati, Semua Untukmu, Sedetik Lebih

Siti Nurhaliza - Cahaya Cinta

Dewa - Sedang Ingin Bercinta

Once - Dealova

English Song:

Maher Zain - Barakallah

Shania Twain - From This Moment

Celine Dion - Because you Love Me, Power of Love

Frank Sinantra - The Way you Look Tonight

Rod Stewart - Have I Told you Lately

Jason Mraz - I'm yours

Rightenous Brothers - Unchained Melody

Nat King Cole - Unforgettable 

DJ Sammy - Heaven

Taylor Swift - Today was a Fairy Tale

You belong with Me

Actually nak download lagu Today was a Fairytale...tapi sedang asyik dan dah terjatuh cinta dengan lagu2 Swift nih, tersalah download plak. Papepun lagu nih still my most favorite lists Layyannnn.....You belong with ME by Taylor Swift!!gak!!

Taylor Swift

"Today Was a Fairytale" is a country pop song by American singer Taylor Swift. Lyrically, the song speaks of a romance using a fairy tale metaphor, much like her previous single "Love Story." The song was released digitally on iTunes on January 19, 2010. The song is scheduled to be released physically in the United Kingdom on February 8th. Swift will perform "Today Was a Fairytale" at the 2010 Grammy Awards.The song sold 325,000 downloads, breaking the record for best first-week download sales by a female artist previously held by the Britney Spears track "Womanizer" which sold 286,000 in its first week.

Carrots, Eggs or Coffee....anyone???

Last night, I was surfing for some information on a certain something, one thing lead to another and somehow I reached a blog which really touched me. 

God gives us that which he knows we can handle .. .. but reading those stories left me speechless. Often I have heard, that a marriage can barely make it out intact after death or trauma of a child and yet I am so glad and astonished at how those parents have stood their ground together thru such a tragedy. Remarkable and amazing ! Indeed their faith has kept them together. 

.............here is a small yet very inspiring story: 

This message is to those people who mean something to me; to those who have touched my life in one way or another; to those who make me smile when I really need it; to those who make me see the brighter side of things when I are really down; to those whose appreciate our friendship; to those who are so meaningful in mylife. 

An Analogy – A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee…

You may never look at a cup of coffee the same way again……..A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as though just as one problem was solved, a new one arose. 

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil. 

In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word. 

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. 

Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see.” 

Carrots, eggs, and coffee,” she replied. 

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did, and noted that they were soft. 

The mother then asked the daughter to take the egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. 

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. 

The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. 

The daughter then asked, “What does it mean, mother?” 

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. 

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. 

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. 

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. 

Which are you?” she asked her daughter. 

“When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?” 

Think of this: Which am I? 

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? 

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, … but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart? 

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. 

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? 

Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? 

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can’t go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. 

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. 

It’s easier to build a child than to repair an adult…When Allah swt wishes to test his children’s faith, He usually tests them with Children or wealth. Some how in most cases, money follows child issues. Imagine a couple who has two disabled children, or a couple who knows one of his child has already been living on grace period out of very chronic severe disease, the pain anguish and helplessness, is something, I cannot even fathom, let put aside the feel. Please pray for the children as much for the parents. They need all the prayers. 

These are no doubt special moms and dads and what makes them special is that inspite of being just like you and me, flesh bones and emotions, they had the choice of accepting defeat in adversity and giving up, yet they kept fighting .. taking each day at a time. Remarkable stories of real life heros ~ moms and dads, just like you and me. 

(insyaallah...jazakallah....amin ya rabb)

Tarikh keramat - 23 Sept. 2010

Assalamualaikum wbt. kepada yang membaca..

Kenapa penulis perlu perjelaskan kepada semua? Ini adalah kerana penulis terasa malas untuk menjawab pertanyaan ini sekali lagi dan sekali lagi. Walaubagaimanapun bagi penulis penjelasan ini juga membawa erti kepada penulis sebagai 'flash back'..maka ceritanya bermula begini, 23 September 2010 adalah tarikh sebenar penulis dikurniakan ijazah master secara sah! Sistem menyumbang kepada pemanjangan tempoh penulis dikurniakan ijazah Master. Tarikh pengurniaan sepatutnya lebih awal dari yang sepatutnya. Tapi 27 September 2010 baru melalui proses viva?? Keadaan agak rumit ketika itu..keempat-empat pemeriksa penulis terlalu sibuk dan penyelia penulis pula sedang menjalani sebatikal di New Zealand sepanjang tempoh tesis dihantar sehingga tarikh yang ditetapkan untuk penulis berdepan dengan mereka. Apa yang saya tekankan disini, senat dan dekan fakulti pengajian siswazah telah secara rasminya mengurniakan penulis ijazah Master pada 23 September 2010!! Lebih awal dari tarikh viva...pelik tetapi benar...

Timbul persoalan kenapa penulis mengambil masa 2 tahun setengah untuk 'selesaikan' Master??? Apa yang lama sangat??Macam buat PhD plak?? Yang sebenarnya..setengah tahun telah penulis gunakan untuk cuti bersalin dan berpantang tetapi untuk 2 tahun sepenuhnya...Nah ini jawapan kepada yang bertanya: ''Saya buat master 'by research' tapi awak buat master 'by coursework'! Kalau 'by coursework' cukup tempoh awak bolehlah dikurniakan master....tapi berbeza dengan saya...saya perlu buat eksperimen ke atas benda hidup (yang menghadapi risiko cuaca, serangan penyakit dan mati) dan perlu ada replikasi!! kalau benda hidup itu mati, makanya saya perlu membuat pengulangan sekali lagi! (bertambahlah tempoh master saya!). Saya juga perlu berdepan dengan mesin...yang saya gunakan untuk analisis benda hidup tersebut...bilamana mesin tersebut bermasalah, akan berlaku ralat terhadap analisis saya..saya perlukan yang sempurna untuk mendapatkan keputusan yang jitu untuk dibawa ke proses seterusnya....pengulangan perlu dilakukan sekali lagi! (bertambah lagi tempoh master saya!). Apabila di proses yang akhir...sekiranya proses persampelan dan analisis yang disangkakan jitu tetapi hanya persis...kecacatan analisis dapat dilihat di bawah mesin pengimejan (keputusan yang tidak jitu dan tidak kemas, tidak boleh diterima sebagai sampel yang boleh dianalisis dan dianggap sebagai penemuan!! makanya pengulangan perlu dilakukan sekali lagi!!! (bertambah-tambahlah tempoh master). Dipendekkan cerita master 'by research' perlukan penghuraian dari segi proses dan analisis, paling penting perlu ada penemuan!!!''. Berbeza kan dengan master coursework kamu itu???

Maaf dipinta, penulis tiada niat untuk memperkecilkan sesiapa apatah lagi ingin meninggi diri...cuma ingin berkongsi cerita yang sebenar kepada empunya diri yang berbangga dengan tempoh habis master hanya 1 tahun!! Apa yang ada pada masa..jika ia tidak membuktikan apa-apa pada diri sendiri. Master bukan hanya segulung ijazah tetapi satu transformasi kematangan diri ke arah yang lebih baik!! Wallahualam.

Nota kaki: Kepada yang masih lagi dalam proses eksperimen, analisis mahupun penulisan..teruskan usaha kalian itu! Jangan ambil peduli kepada mereka yang hanya pandai berkata-kata. Mereka tidak berada di dalam situasi yang sama dengan kita. Kita juga tidak mampu membuat mereka faham apa yang sedang kita lalui. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul. Teruskan dengan kajian kalian...sesungguhnya sekecil-kecil perkara yang kita kaji, membuatkan kita bertambah dekat dengan Dia. Keagungan dan kekuasaanNya diluar kemampuan dan capaian akal kita ...semoga tercapai segala hajat dan hasrat kalian untuk dikurniakan ijazah Master mahupun Doktor falsafah!!.

Thank you....Thank you... Blessed & Loved!

Thesis title: PHYSICO-CHEMICAL, BETACYANIN, ANTIOXIDANT AND CELLULAR STRUCTURE DURING DEVELOPMENT OF RED-FLESHED DRAGON FRUIT (Hylocereus polyrhizus)

VIVA VOCE: 27.09.2010, 2pm, Bilik Viva 2 UPM

Viva is all about demonstrate the depth and breath of our knowledge!! Such a great feeling when my chairman revealed that...ADILLA U R  PASS WITH MINOR CORRECTION!! After spending a long time preparing, planning, researched, written and analysed a topic, then undertake a sustained effort to reach the summit. I have to continue my journey...

I would like to share with you one of examiner's question that keep in my mind and make 'me smile myself'..hehe.

'Why do think you deserve to be awarded MSc?'

(Fuhhh...good gentle ice breaker...) A wiseman once told me, when one door closes, another one opens for you. So, at last this day has come and I'm standing at the door on the way out of this great University. And as the door are closing behind me, I hope that the skills I have acquired here, many doors are opening for me now!!

ACKNOWLEDGMENT 

This thesis would not have been possible, and I would like to begin by giving praise to the Almighty God, the great I AM, Alhamdulillah. Without His grace and mercy, none of this would have been possible.

Next, I would like to show my gratitude to my supervisor, Dr. Phebe Ding for her enlightening suggestions and patient guidance from the preliminary to the end of this process. Without which I would not be able to make it to the end. I am also grateful to Assoc. Prof. Dr. Azizah Abdul Hamid for being the committee.

I am deeply indebted to my dear family members as they had shown ceaseless support the whole time especially to my parents (Dr. Jamaludin Badusah and Mrs. Hashimah Hashim) and my brothers (Mr. Mohd Illuddin, Mr. Mohd Nasruddin and Mr. Mohd Latif). They had lent a helping hand whenever I faced any difficulties. I remain indebted to my husband, Mr. Mardian Matasan and my beautifully daughter Baby Marha Nabilah who stand beside me and had accepted my selfish time all the while, starting from first year right until this very day. It is because of their loving kindness which motivates me to fight hard and never give up until the end. Words cannot express my appreciation towards their time and effort.

To family members of Postharvest Laboratory, I would like to thank each and every one of you for your valuable advices and feedbacks. It is through your scrutinizing observations which made this system complete without error. To Miss Joanna Cho, I am grateful to the companions. The project can come to its completion was a result of our knowledge exchange and sharing. I owe my deepest gratitude to Miss Atiqah Sharif, Miss Nor Elliza Tajidin, Miss Munirah Mohamad, Miss Bunga Ketaren and Mr. Humam Wan Mansor for all those constructive advices and formulae explanation, thank you very much.

Lastly, I offer my regards and blessings to all of those who supported me in any respect during the completion of the project.

I would like to dedicate this thesis to my late grandfather (Mr. Badusah Abas) and late uncle (Mr. Bekkari Badusah) as both gave me moral support I required within two and half years of completion.

Nur Adilla Jamaludin

Blog oh blog

Assalamualaikum wbt.
Percaya tidak percaya akhirnya saya punya blog sendiri (http://gummimummy.blogspot.com)...Alhamdulillah. Tercapai hajat di hati, untuk mengisi masa lapang kononnye. Lapang sangat ke? sampai sempat mempunyai dan menulis blog?? Ehemmm...kita tunggu dan lihat...
Tujuan utama blog ini adalah untuk berkongsi idea, pendapat, kritikan tentang keadaan sekeliling dan masalah dunia juga...tidak dilupakan berkongsi resepi di sini. Ramai yang bertanyakan resepi kan? Saya rasa blog inilah tempat yang paling sesuai untuk saya kongsi resepi. Tidak dilupakan ramai yang bertanya tentang perkembangan Marha...dan apa rahsia saya sehingga berjaya menyusukan Marha secara ekslusif? Di blog ini jugalah saya akan kongsi dan coretkan untuk dikongsi dan tatapan bersama. Di samping itu juga anda semua dijemput memberi 'sekupang dua ' pendapat dalam menambahbaik kualiti hidup kita ye....Insyaallah semoga blog ini akan beri manfaat pada kita semua. Selamat malam semua. Semoga dalam lindungan Allah.


Nota kaki: Kepada blogger yang 'otai-otai'...sila beri tunjuk ajar, saya masih baru di bidang ini.